Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Sept 18th marks the 15th Anniversary for Trent and I. I can hardly believe it has been that long. We dated for 3 years before we got married. (18yrs total). It makes me feel so old. I have almost been a Beardall as long as I was a Barber. The years have been eventful for us, but they have been good. Trent still makes me laugh. He is the best dad ever. He is the one that takes care of sick kids. I really appreciate all he does for our family. I couldn't have asked for a better partner to share Eternity. I have been very lucky to be able to marry my best friend, and to be accepted into the Beardall family with open arms. Love you Trent.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
I made it a year. I can hardly believe it. A year ago Sept 4th I lost my very special Dad. I made it through all the "firsts". Birthdays, Anniversaries, etc. I am so glad that he is no longer suffering. He never wanted to put anyone out, I loved helping him the last few months. He had to have a tube inserted into his throat so he could be hooked up to a machine to help him breathe. When he first came home from the hospital we kids took turns helping get him "hooked up". I was first and ended up staying the night at his house for a few nights. He was so nervous and I was now responsible for his life. I miss him so much. I really think he knew the end was near. He got my mom all settled in her new house and then just 4 days after we moved them he went into the hospital. I thought he would do as he had in the past and get well in a few weeks and come home. He was in the hospital 4 days before he passed away. My Uncle Keith was with him and my mom at the time and I am forever grateful to him for being there for my parents. I have had the hardest time the last few weeks. Because I know he would have loved the weather, parties, and seeing his grand kids grow and become great little people. I know that in my worst times he is with me. I just wish I could have one more time to sit and chat with him like we did in his room at night when I would go to his house and help get him hooked up to his breathing machine for the night. We would just chat about the day. We had no interruptions from the phone or kids. I have had great support from Trent. He is the best. He lets me be a cry baby when needed. My most memorable moment of my Dad is when he would hold my arm and say "Thank you, love you Cutie" I miss his voice. I made my family photos of them with my dad and the saying "I've learned that I may forget what you said, I may forget what you did, but I will never forget how you made me feel." I cant wait to see him again, healthy and happy.
Bridgette started dancing yesterday. She was so excited. When she woke up today she told me she will go next week but only if the teacher has her radio back. Bridgette is in the Preschool class on Tuesdays with Allie Moore. (one of her best friends). Brin is in the Shooting Stars on Wednesday. This is her 4th year dancing.